The Hardest Toll to Pay

About 2 days ago, I got word that my granddad [my dad's dad] has lymphatic cancer or something along those lines and that he is also having kidney failure and other complications. So my dad and one of his sisters left Atlanta this morning for Charleston, SC to go see him. Well while talking to my mom she told me that the doctors have told my father that he is not going to make it and all they can do is give him medicine to help with the pain. Now when I was talking to my mom, she told me that my dad cried about it and that he is having a hard time coming to terms with it but he'll be okay. The fact that my granddad is dying hasn't hit me yet but the fact that my dad was crying killed me. Its something about a man crying that tears me apart on the inside. The fact that its my father rips me to pieces inside-out. I guess its because men are supposed to be strong and sturdy and emotionless. In my mind, it must take alot to get him to that point. But I've said all this to say, be strong daddy!. I love you!.

Taylor Swift vs. Kanye West

So I know I may be a tad late on this one but I just got word that the whole Taylor Swift and Kanye thing at the MTV awards [whatever award show it was] was Taylor Swift's initiation into the Iluminati (sp?.). I refuse to believe this. lol. Little, sweet, innocent Taylor Swift could not be in the Iluminati (sp again?.). What do u think?...

.Lesson Learned.

I promise all of these aren't gonna be about guys. This is just heavy on my mind right now. Through recent observation, I've found it quite hilarious that a guy can think he has u wrapped around his finger and right when it starts to unravel(sp?.) the story unfolds... DUM DUM DUUUUUUUM. So there's this guy, I definitely think he is master player of all players.



I've never met anyone that can seem so genuine and sincere when in actuality, everything coming from their lips is a lie. So I've had the pleasure of counteracting with this guy [and I say its a pleasure because you learn so much from people like this]. And i have come to realize he is extremely smart and tactful. Not only is he book smart, but he knows how to manipulate a situation to go his way and when it turns on him... he's two steps ahead of the game and already knows what to say next.



He doesn't know this but I call him the modern-day Odysseus. Here's why: If you've never read the Odessy. Definitely look into that, its a great story. Anywho, Odysseus is a greek ruler who go through lots of troubles in his life. He's so great that NO ONE can beat him at anything... He can outthink, outsmart, and outhustle anyone. Not only is Odysseus wise, he is physically blessed also. He is the ULTIMATE gentleman, knows how to treat everyone, he's world-wide renown(sp?.), and he's just so great he can have his cake and eat it too. Anyway, during the story Odysseus gets into alot of tight situations where you would think there is no way out [in our modern-day terms... he stuck his foot in his mouth]. But he somehow manipulates the thoughts of all of the people who has come his way. He does it so well that u cannot tell if his statements are sincere or if he's just pulling your leg. He's somewhat studied how people think and has worked his way on everyone's good side... Even his enemies.



So back to my modern-day Odysseus, he is everything I just described and maaaybe a little more. But in this time with him I have also been observing him. I am only observing him because I like people like this. I like to see how they work and think. I would like to think like them. As I spend more and more time with this person, I see myself becoming just as manipulative as he is... [I still haven't decided whether I like that or not... maybe it'll be helpful in some situations]. I can't really end this story because it hasnt ended yet, the cookie hasnt crumbled, and the fat lady hasnt sang. BUT when it does, I'll be sure to let u know how it all turns out.